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[16 Apr 2005|03:36pm] |
last night was actually good. i hung out with lucas for the first time in two months and we went downtown with a bunch of people. tonight was horrible, though. we drove around in the car forever picking up people and what not and then we sat at andolini's for three fucking hours. i wanted to cry it was so boring. and that stupid nick kid pissed me off. he had no fucking right to call me quiet and uninteresting when he doesn't even fucking know me. god some people are so stupid. and i'm tired of acting like people's girlfriends or whatever the hell you want to call them when i'm not. i feel like i'm being used because they just don't have anyone else at the time but as soon as some one else comes along it'll be over. and i can't handle that again but for some reason, i'm dumb enough to get caught up in something because i trust people more than they diserve to be.
i want some one to love me.
and by love me, i don't mean bullshit me into their way of getting something.
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well, this weekend was cool. hm friday i was on restriction, but just for the night? psh don't ask me why. then saturday i went to harper's friend megan's sweet 16. it was pretty fancy but we got bored and left around ten. hm and then we went to go watch some kids fight? i didn't really get it but alright haha. uhmm and then brian and jake took us home at twelvish. and sunday, harper and me woke up and went to her horsey place, and wow, that horse was scary haha, and then laid out and went to an oyster roast at my daddy's church. it was bunches of fun and i ate two oysters but thought i was going to puke because they are so grody. ew ew ew. but yeah then i came home and such. blah and today, was just any other stupid monday. but next week is spring break! and i'm going to shane's! yayyy! its most definately very exciting but yeah, i'm going to go watch how to deal :D
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this is going to be incredibly long.
so yes, lately everything seems to be sucking a great deal. i'm supposively on restriction until spring break, too. not that it matters because i don't even care at this point. but spring break i'm spending most of it with shane. THANK GOD and it will be fabulous because that's just how we roll. blah. this summer i'm moving in with my father. i can't stand being around my mother anymore.
i think i've become unbareably shy, too. it's like when i'm around people i don't know, i can't speak at all. i piss myself off by doing it so i know it must make other people angry. blah and lucas, god.i wish he would just fucking tell me what he wants so i can stop this bullshit. and if he likes paige, or any one else for that matter, okay, i just want to know. jesus. it's fucking driving me crazy. i can't compete with that anyways though so i should just give up. yeah, i'm retarded. blahhhhhhhhhhh. i'm going to go shower and such. <3
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[15 Feb 2005|07:12pm] |
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ergh fuck this shit. im over it :)
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[14 Feb 2005|05:38pm] |
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hm i doubt anyone will read this but i'm going to update this stupid thing anyways. uhm this last weekend was okay i suppose friday i got to see THE SHANE at a hockey game and that's always fabulous because after all she is shane. then saturday was lucas's birthday. it was alright i guess. we went to some old naval base thing and i was so scared i thought iw as going to cry. hm and yesterday i went to my daddys and out to lunch with him and all taht jazz since i havent been seeing much of him lately. ergh things with lucas have gotten really confusing lately. we brkoe up like, almost a month ago and for some reason i still like him. yeah, sutpid me. and idk i get the feeling he likes some other paige girl now, which is really upsetting but i guess i can't do anything about it. whatever. SHANES COMING TO STAY WITH ME SPRING BREAK :D thank the lord and sarah might come too! which would be even greater because i love those two kids more than anything <3
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[27 Jan 2005|06:20pm] |
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SHANE IS COMING!!!!!!!!!!! :D
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[19 Jan 2005|09:18pm] |
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i haven updated in ages. uhm this past weekend was fancy. friday i went downtown with lucas and whatnot. saturday i stayed at my dads. sunday i went to harpers and stayed sunday night and thats about it. yesterday was so great. i stayed home and made chocolate chip pancakes and laid in my bed all day :D it was quite the wonderful. me and lucas broke up on monday. its cool though because i think it'll be better this way. and hopefully we'll still be friends because he's quite the rad even if he's not my boyfriend anymore. and today.. was alright i suppose. but yeah, i'm out. <3
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hm so this weekend was okay i guess.. friday i went to my daddys and didn't really do anything because i felt sick all night. uhm last night i went over to harper's and we went to the be wando game. which would have been cool if i knew anybody there but i didn't so it was all good anyway. uhm then we went to some guy named brian's house? i think that was his name. and blah blah and me harper and her two friends erin and erin spent the night at harper's. haha we straightened her brother ralphie's hair and made him put on girl pants. it was hawt haha and today we woke up and went to chilis and shopping and such and thats it. i didn't see lucas all weekend :/ hm i don't really know what's going on but whatever. i think he'd rather hang out with his friends than be with me anyway. oh well whatever. <3
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[13 Dec 2004|07:45pm] |
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today was actually really good. uhm first period was dumb. lucas didn't show up. again. so he's gonna fail. again. and be a sophomore for the rest of his life. oh well. lunch was funny because priscilla kept making fun of my mom telling me to eat and made me eat most of my lunch. and art was super funny because i drew anna like 93471985791234 pictures on her folder thing. even a picture of a cow! but she colored the cow black and said it was charcoaled :( gosh what a cow killer. oh and this weekend was pretty cool, too. friday i went to zach baker's with lucas and then to the basketball game. woo hoo. and then saturday i went to lexington and spent the night at shanes. oh well thats about it <3
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[08 Dec 2004|03:47pm] |
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WHO GOT THEIR ACOUSTIC TODAY?!?!
yeah, that's right. charlotte howland cochran did.
:D x bagillion and four
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[04 Dec 2004|11:27pm] |
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this past week was okay i guess, besides the fact i felt horrible every day. but uhm yeah last night i didnt really do anything. i mean i got invited to i jsut didnt feel like going anywhere. then today lucas came over and we were supposed to make gingerbread houses haha that didnt work out too well. uhm i dont know where our so called relationship is right now and its kinna starting to bug me. that and i have no idea what he thinks about any of it. ergh. oh well i guess. i think i might come up on saturday to lexington but just for the day because my sister is going to have a cookie party or something crazy like that. idk its "tradition". but yeah so i can see shane! :) uhm but yeah im gonna go because im super tired <3
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wow i havent updated in a long time.
um nothing too supers been going on but happy late thanksgiving!
this breaks been pretty cool
wednesday i went to this guy zach's house with lucas and all of his friends.. um im gonna try to remember all their names.. i think there was zach and chris and tommy and eulie and another zach and maybe a guy named andre. but yeah that was pretty cool. then on thursday i went out to my aunts country house and we ate and all that jazz with my cousins and aunts and uncles and my crazy grandmother haha friday was super rad. it started off sucky because my sister was bein a bitch but then natalie called :) and me and her and lucas and her friend emily drove all the way to columbia to see emery and boys night out and first to last <3 wow emery is so rad and i got a shirt and its super cute except i got a youth large thinking it might even be a little too small and that thing was beastly haha but yeah im gonna go shower and all that jazz <3
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[07 Nov 2004|08:41pm] |
10 bands you love
. the early november
. taking back sunday
. thrice
. dead poetic
. the flaming lips
. matchbook romance
. my chemical romance
. john mayer
. senses fail
. tom petty
9 things that make you smile
. friends
. the do you realize song by the flaming lips
. lazy days
. oreo pudding
. my old school vans
. shopping
. good hair days
. summertime
. aviators
8 things you wear daily
. earing
. mascara
. hair thingie
. tubies of course
. undies
. shirt
. pants
. sandels if im not wearing my tubies :)
7 things that annoy you
. those crazy drama mamas
. mean people
. awkward silences
. when people try too hard
. badddd hair days
. fat days
. moving
6 things you are looking forward to
. restricted
. getting a car :)
. christmas
. SHANES COMING NEXT WEEKEND :D
. maybe going to a show next weekend
. moving out finalllly
5 things you are scared of
. bugs
. super tall stuff
. dying
. people forgetting me
. getting fat
4 people you talk to daily
. mom
. shane most of the time
. sarah king
. dad
3 foods you could live off of
. OREO PUDDING!
. jello
. doritos
2 unforgettable moments (good or bad)
. my first kiss hahaha
. moving :/
this weekend was super cool. friday i didnt do much and saturday i went and got my hair cut.. ahhh i got like 6 maybe 7 inches off. its quite the crazy. then i went to a play thing and out to eat with cameron priscilla katie and kyle who are all rad of course and then today i went to my dads and watched movies all day and made a cake and this week so better be good b/c im wearing my ohio is for lovers shirt tomorrow <3
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today totally sucked.
it was definately a teeshirt and jeans kinna day.
and it started out horrible too.
in first block i had my head down and this fat kid that sits next to me i guess he thought i was asleep and he goes to his little fat friend "anorexic people are so stupid." and his friend is like i bet charlotte is anorexic. i was so pissed i sat up and told him to shut the fuck b/c his fat ass didnt know what anorexic was. gah i hate that kid. but other than that my day was just normal i guess. this weekend was okay. i went to lexington or whatever. we just hung out with people all weekend or something like that. and tomorrow we so dont have school and i so dont have anything to do b/c im a big loser and everyones going to the fair. >:O oh well, <3.
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yeah its been forever since i've updated this beast b/c im on restriction for stupid grades but its all good. this week was actually pretty okay. i so got the most awesome shoes last weekend. theyre hawt pink heels and they make me like 6 feet tall but i dont care b/c i love them. this week was actually good. last night i so went to my first football game with priscilla cameron and caroline. it was rad b/c i actually had a good time for like the first time since i've been here. and im coming to stay with my shane next weekend :):) i cant wait to see that woman AND WE'RE GONNA BE PIRATES TOGETHER! :D ((of course im gonna be her first mate)) so that'll be loads of fun. but yeah im gonna go eat breakfast <3
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[07 Oct 2004|09:11pm] |
today was wonderful :D
i didnt have to go to school so i woke up at like 11 and watched a movie and laid out
then i cleaned so my mommy would give me money and when she fiiiinally got home from kiawah she took me to get sarku japan which i am madly in love with and then to manifest :):):) i got the flaming lips and two early november cds :D YAY! and tomorrow im going to kiawah for whole weekend so i can lay out even more and not be so incredibly pale :) and we dont have school monday! :D i love today <3
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[05 Oct 2004|09:06pm] |
2. Are we friends?
3. When and how did we meet?
4. How have I affected you?
5. What do you think of me?
6. What's the fondest memory you have of me?
7. How long do you think we will be friends?
8. Do you love me?
9. Do you have a crush on me?
10. Would you kiss me?
11. Would you hug me?
12. Physically, what stands out?
13. Emotionally, what stands out?
14. Do you wish I was cooler?
15. On a scale of 1-10, how hot am I?
16. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it. .
17. Am I loveable?
18. How long have you known me?
19. Describe me in one word.
20. What was your first impression?
21. Do you still think that way about me now?
22. What do you think my weakness is?
23. Do you think I'll get married?
24. What makes me happy?
25. What makes me sad?
26. What reminds you of me?
27. If you could give me anything what would it be?
28. How well do you know me?
29. When's the last time you saw me?
30. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
31. Do you think I could kill someone?
32. Are you going to put this on your LiveJournal and see what I say about you?
fill it out and comment baby ;)
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[26 Sep 2004|09:24pm] |
well this weekend was pretty cool.
friday my daddy drove me up to shanes and we went to the movies. haha walt was my hawt date. he's such a cutie. yeah and then me and shane and sarah and amanda all spent the night at shanes so that was grand and we just watched movies and all that jazz. then saturday we all woke up and went to the mall. i got this super coolio wallet for like like 4 bucks so that was dandy. and then we came home and got pretty b/c we all looked like poo and went to neals for a while. it was alright i guess. me and shane kinna felt like losers though b/c everbody was off being neato without us so we laid in neals driveway and had twirling contests in the road. haha we left at like 10ish and me and amanda spent the night at shanes. today we woke up and went to mcdonalds with THE sarah king and then came back to shanes and then i came back home. but thats about all for the weekend b/c today i just slept and watched movies. but yeah im out. later ;)
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